Please watch this if you've time it's really so heartwarming it made me tear then again i'm very emotional but yes, you should definitely watch it!!!!



Quick update: all my presentations are finally over! Had my very first formal prezzie yesterday which was ITB yeap so right now I can concentrate on econs and PACC. ESTs end in less than a week's time which is scary really; so excited for it to end though i've got many plans thought out (very typical of me) but that's what that really motivates me to push on. Also thinking of doing something like a video like what you can do in Singapore but I don't think i'm allowed to carry my dad's camera outside okay this is making me really sad goodbye while I find some snacks to relieve my depression.

First blood donation experience

#acting like i'm well-read

Have been caught up with ITB project work recently and I even have to return to school on Sunday to finish it up and prepare for our presentation so that means i'll have to skip cell group. Plus we are required to be in formal wear for our presentation on Wednesday oh gosh I don't like the idea of it because it adds to the stress and anxiety I may get. Thankfully, it isn't going to be long, 15 to 20 minutes per group. Most probably getting the formal wear at Jem with Wei Yun this Monday/Tuesday after our PACC revision with Mr Pang.

You know I just posted a 15 seconds cover of Cool Kids by Echosmith because i'm obsessed with the song ever since I first heard it on Vine by Kenzie it was so perfect and yeah basically it has more than 70 plays on my iTunes but you know the thought of other people (more of your friends and acquaintances) listening to your voice on instagram is kinda terrifying. I don't know but like maybe putting myself out there can somehow boost my self-esteem???? My singing isn't even good that's for sure okay but I enjoy singing and yeah bottom line is i'm really scared and nervous about putting my cover out there. 

Today marks the end of Term 2 of Semester 1. Not exactly but in terms of lessons, yeap it is. I've finished with my gen ed (so glad it's over) video and I think I gave myself a heart attack and it led to an emotional outburst????? So it was rumoured (from Gabriel) that we were supposed to upload our videos by 5pm but my partner, Jia Ee and I were kinda lacking behind because we hadn't got a suitable time to meet until Tuesday which was our submission dateline and we finished making the video at 6+PM so when I reached home I couldn't even eat! I was so stressed about getting it uploaded and it literally took forever for it to be processed; almost 2 hours maybe? I even asked for a prayer request because I was really afraid that Mr Wilson Yeo would penalise us and deduct marks and I can't afford to do badly because i've done bad enough for my first CA. So thank God everything was fine and that gen ed and MOB presentations are finally done and over with!

Also, I finally plucked my courage to donate blood for the very first time!!!!!!!!!! And i'm really proud of myself because blood donation is something i've wanted to do because many medical procedures require blood transfusions and it may save a life! #acheivementunlocked I was very nervous the whole way through because I was afraid I might faint thanks to Rasiya describing her incident which gave me a fright — she had a seizure and blacked out for a while and another girl who fainted and fell off the stretcher and #SOS the nurses surrounded her and lowered her stretcher and she regained consciousness. The whole time I was like mentally preparing myself and thanks to the encouragement from my friends and cell group, I got through it!!! It wasn't exactly as painful as I thought even though the anaesthetic injection stung a bit and the needle looked terrifyingly thick! It hurt for a split second but generousity overrides pain plus the nurses were very solicitous and caring; which made the experience tenfold better and i'm just so glad I went.

This coming week will be a tough one and then it will be my exams on the following week - PACC and econs! Gonna give my best. Here's a verse "With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26 Just gonna rely on Him for strength and yes, I hope this coming 1.5 weeks will be a fruitful one!! xxx

Heartfelt reassurance

The parenting series has come to an end today and God has been really generous. His presence really manifested and touched a nerve in me last sermon. His words spoke to me; it was so clear and compelling, I knew I had to humble myself to go to the altar. This overwhelming intensity of His Spirit just washed over me and my eyes involuntarily welled up and I kept shedding tears for maybe 20 minutes, I couldn't hold it together. He heals, He really does heal our brokenness and it isn't temporary. The comfort He brings is so reassuring and it's just amazing how He works in each and every one of us.

"Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits — who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion," Psalm 103:2-4 (NIV)

6th anniversary

Can't believe that i've been blogging for 6 whole years ever since I was in primary 5, 10 years old and  guess how old I am now. 17!!!!! This is absolutely crazy and I'm just really really glad i've never forsaken this blog despite my pointless rants and emotional outbursts and peculiar thoughts expressed here. Honestly this blog means so much to me; it started out as a norm that everyone used to have just for the sake of it but really, it has developed into something much more significant and i'll always continue blogging even if i'm caught up in studies or whatever. Here's to another 6 more years xxx

Mum's 50th

It's august 3rd already can you believe it?  Left with one month before semester one officially ends!!! For the past few weeks I've been spending loads of time with Cheryl, Tricia and Javier on our DBE project. Made lots of effort in our report and presentation materials which includes a mexican piñata stuffed with styrofoam tacos and sweets. Even did the hat dance which was filmed OMG the embarrassment, nevertheless it was fun and super hilarious. Stayed back on certain days till at least 7-8PM even at ITE college west and had a great time with them x yesterday was our presentation and as usual, I prayed beforehand because I've a fear of public speaking and I tend to get nervous and I'll stutter but thank God it turned out pretty alright. Our hard work paid off even though it was kinda impromptu because we hadn't got enough time to rehearse but it was not bad in my opinion.

Last Sunday was my mum's 50th birthday!!! The big 50 but unfortunately she had to work. We celebrated the next day and my sister and I made her eggs benedict topped with hollandaise sauce and toasted waffles served with strawberries with loads of help from my dad because it wasn't easy as how the recipe video looked!! Bought her 3 small tubes of L'occitane hand cream and a wooden photo frame from Muji and also made her a card xxx glad she liked them. We had breakfast/lunch/dinner all combined (bc we ate at 3-4 and I skipped breakfast) at Sushi Tei wow their food is seriously overpriced. Also had a durian cake from Durian Mpire. Really blessed to have her as my mum; always giving and never receiving the same. Can never ask for more. 

As of now I'm sweating so much because I'm blogging while waiting for my bus to come when I'm already late and it's taking forever!!! Oh and guess who I saw this Wednesday at marine parade????? Mr Chua the discipline master from Queensway!!!!! #feelingsentimental 

Can't wait for tomorrow to come because the Scanteak furniture is arriving plus a new sofa woohoo that's all for now <3

Ramblings #1

I've orders of business. Let's get down to it! *Mulan song starts playing* Let's get down to business to defeat the huns~

Okay enough of me being weird, first I wanted to update you on my schedule and other things that have been happening in my life. That's right, Sheryl providing you with the highest quality of entertainment! Second week of school has gone by real quick, not even kidding. Piled with at least 5 projects; some of which are due next week followed by 2 weeks later and yes, when I reached home yesterday I ate some Korean food for dinner which I got from West Mall and sorry Chia Lynn that I wasn't able to come for your drama performance x proceeded to finish my gen ed photo essay on ageism and after that, I knocked out. And I woke up at 9 the next day which is basically today and ate apple flavoured granola bars and watched some HK shows and fell into a really deep sleep but still felt groggy after that like that always happens but yeah it's a Saturday and I think I can afford to do that as long as I can finish my revision and assignments at the end of the day because my mum mentioned that if I can't manage = no going to church #strictexpectations but I'M STILL trying to STOP PROCRASTINATION ugh it really bothers me that I can't prioritise my work properly

Sorry I ramble a lot when i've nothing to talk about. Anyway, last Sunday I went to Plain Vanilla Bakery at Tiong Bahru with Si Rui!!!!!!!! It's a cafe with pretty decorations and tasty cupcakes and other european desserts. As we were trying to take a photo of the whole shop, this Caucasian father was like posing for the pictures it was really hilarious and cute at the same time. Had a quick breakfast because we were rushing for prayer walk (turned out we were one of the earliest). I ordered a salted caramel tart and iced honey lemon drink and yeap, I guess that's all???

By the way I discovered this really cute, down-to-earth and lovely youtuber called Savannah Brown through an advertisement which played before Cameron Dalla's video. It was about a slam poem with regard to Nash Grier, Cam and JC's "What Guys Look For In Girls" video which created lots of drama and controversy. So that video really came in at the perfect timing. Here's the link to her youtube channel, you should definitely check her out! http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDAjO0-hd_RS8ZYJ4W-Iq5Q *promoting even though no one reads my blog*

24h staying up study session?

Kinda just spacing back and forth (not physically) but i'm currently staying up (probably through 24h), pushing myself and seeing if I can actually do it obviously not for fun and games, but to finish my accounting revision and assignment because i've prayer walk and service tomorrow and that means half the day will be used up. Sorry not thinking coherently because it's 2:54AM in the morning and i'm just typing out whatever that comes into my mind.

Honestly i've not been using my time to the best of my capability and I know that, why am I so lazy and unmotivated to make the change? Kinda just wish these 10 weeks will end so that the holidays will come again and it will be 1.5 months long! Super satisfying knowing that there won't be any projects and assignments given. Perhaps i'll find a part-time job but hopefully something that I like, no admin jobs for me anymore (unless i've run out of choices)

On the brighter note, i've been writing diary entries pretty consistently, that's good. It's really therapeutic and it calms me down whenever I get emotional (nothing to do with PMS okay) It's in my cursive handwriting, kinda illegible to me and I wonder if I can make out what the wordings are when i'm old and wrinkly, probably not but it will be interesting.

Don't know why this first week of school already exhausted me, whoever says "poly life is relaxing" should take his/her words back because it's totally untrue. It's just a very different learning environment compared to JC but I don't know much since i've only been schooling for 1 term but yeah, I guarantee you that it's more hands on and you will learn how to be more outspoken *still trying here* because of presentations and group projects etc and there will be internships during your 3rd year which is kinda exciting for me I don't know but part of me is looking forward to it 

Okay -rant over- going to continue with my assignments and i'll update you on how it goes!