Mixed emotions

Did really badly for Chinese o levels probably due to oral which pulled down my grade. That's why I've decided to quit tumblr and try to become more focused and determined to actually achieve good grades. "The perfect moment to start is always now." 

I won't be updating often but I've one good news to share. I'll be seeing Nick Vujicic at Grace Assembly of God II on 6 September thanks to Darryl who provided us the tickets. I'm honestly so excited because I've watched him on YouTube and he's incredibly amazing and inspirational. Who knew that I would be given an opportunity to see him live?!

But on the other hand I'm still pretty upset and disappointed and unmotivated. But I'll do my best. 

I've also discovered that Lola from Zoey 101 is actually Victoria Justice (random fact) okay I'll update maybe in 1/2/3 months' time goodbye!

Tumblr addict

Rainy night and I'm using tumblr while listening to Jayesslee. This is getting out of hand, I've been spending way too much time on tumblr ever since Chinese O levels has ended. (Which explains why I'm so reluctant to create a new post here) Who knew tumblr could be this addictive?

I've moved to http://www.upforcotton.tumblr.com/ so I recommend you to follow if you like! No really just check it out! >:-) 

It means that I'm no longer using my previous tumblr - sheryl13. I wanted a change and I like tumblr a lot. I reblog pictures and quotes which really relate to me and anything that I like. It's a really great website to socialise because almost everyone has a good sense of humour (I've no idea why) and they get along really well. 

That's one issue. And just wanted to share with you that when I was at the bus-stop with Si Rui this afternoon, a lady sitting beside me turned around and asked, "excuse me, do you know where's the merlion?"

Then we told her it's at the Singapore River. Our bus arrived and yea we sorta just laughed a lot. I've absolutely no idea why I couldn't control my laughter. Like out of the blue someone asks you where the merlion is (it's just so funny) or is my sense of humour that bad? Because I laugh at things that aren't funny and yea I really do need to learn how to manage this problem. Totally applies to English tuition classes gosh what's wrong with me.

Anyway, I've been feeling pretty happy these few days. Trying to forget about the other things that make me depressed etc and tumblr helps so maybe that's why I look forward to going home just to use tumblr on daddy's laptop. I sound like such a nerd but no don't judge me.

Will end here and I'll update soon maybe x

Sister's birthday celebration 2013

It's 3:19 AM and I'm awake (obviously) and I just bathed. Don't feel tired, really. The reason is because I had a bad headache yesterday night and I slept right after dinner. So yeap I pretty much can't sleep now.

Last day of Chinese intensive and I don't know I'm pretty nervous for the first o levels written paper. And also worried for parents meeting. Sigh #mrsloypleasereturn 

Totally craving for mac and cheese, macs apple pie, s'mores (which I can make right now but I'm lazy to), durian mochi, and home cooked dishes. 

Okay didn't plan to combine 2 posts but shall continue with my sister's birthday celebration. It was simple but I hope she was happy. 

Sister's birthday celebration 2013

Sister's treat to family (yay)

(Even though I hardly say this) but i'm really grateful to have my sister. She's someone whom I can talk to. She makes me feel happier and less lonely. She is also a very strong person I believe. And I hope that she's able to enter NIE yay <3

Very short post but I'm feeling tired. Goodnight/good morning. 

Unhappy thoughts

http://www.marcandangel.com/2013/03/08/10-little-habits-that-steal-your-happiness/

This article resonates with me. 

If you ask me to rate how I'm doing right now on a scale of 1 to 10, I'd say 6. Or 5.5? I know this seems really controversial because of the article I mentioned earlier but I really feel unhappy right now.

Life in singapore is so stressful. And it's not just studies. I feel so lost. I honestly feel quite unhappy. 

Let me tell you what, I'd like to migrate to another country because I really dislike living in Singapore sometimes. I know it seems like I'm taking things for granted but I just think that maybe Hong Kong would be a better choice next time I graduate. Wow. Being a Hong Kong PR opens doors to more opportunities but its a tough decision I've to make in the future. Even so, I don't have to make a choice now. 

Being the immature me I found this on tumblr and I can relate to it quite some bit. 

This is what I want. I guess. 

Yea "the grass is always greener on the other side" I get this proverb. But it just occurs to me that this is how I feel and maybe I'm wrong. 

But I'm just gonna try to do my best in my studies right now. And not be distracted. 

Sheryl 

TGIF #2

Mid-year exams have ended and I'll finally have sufficient sleep! Okay I've got to admit that I didn't do my best for certain subjects because I was too exhausted. I had really little sleep during the exam week, let's say 3-5 hours per day because of my last minute revision and I'm quite frustrated at myself. I just  don't seem to learn my lesson to revise beforehand but hopefully, I won't do the same for prelims.

Anyway, not gonna bore you but I went to Jurong Point today with Si Rui after physics paper 1! Bought Iron Man 3 movie tickets and it was really good! 

Ah Robert Downey Jr!!!!!!!!!!

Totally would recommend you this action-packed movie!

Walked around John Little before the movie and were looking through all the cute princesses and hello kitty bedsheets and cutlery sets ah like I'd actually use it if it were given to me.

Also walked around shops to look for my sister's birthday gift and I've found something probably to her liking. Well I like it, so I'm guessing that she'll actually wear it? But the thing is that I'm afraid she bought this before cos it looks familiar. I took the risk anyway. #risktaker 

Got these adorable party hats from Artbox! And I forgot to mention that we bumped into Nicole Tong thrice. It was an awkward encounter. Hehe but it was sorta nice to see her again. It led me to think that I'm such an awkward person. Like at the shop where I was asking the sales assistant whether I could get the cropped top, and she sorta just looked at me, and I looked back at her and put the top back onto the rack like what was I actually supposed to do?

-Back to the topic- I guess my sister wouldn't find out about this birthday surprise (is it even considered one?) or maybe birthday preparation because she's away for a church camp.

Had lunch at Toastbox and ordered laksa! Not bad but I think my appetite grew smaller (hahaha don't judge me).

Got home and attempted a cover of Please Don't Say You Love Me but I have up. Just didn't feel like doing one. 

I'll update more frequently maybe. But I'm really afraid of receiving my results on Tuesday. I just don't wanna know how badly I did for chemistry and amath. And maybe physics. Maybe I don't deserve this post exam break.

Anyway, goodnight. (I enjoyed my Friday morning/afternoon)

Quick update

I'm really supposed to be studying right now. -but just a quick update before I go!-

I won't be updating very often for the coming weeks even though I've been totally neglecting you for 1 month or longer. I'm sorry, but I promise to update quality posts (every month or so) despite the lack of time.

So my sister just got me this little notebook which resembles some Harry Potter spell casting book I guess. She asked me to write down any positive thoughts or anything which made me happy or that I'm thankful for. I've been keeping this habit of writing it daily because I've noticed that it actually helps me focus on happier thoughts and maybe this is the start of my journey to becoming a happier person. You can't really call me an optimist but neither am I really pessimistic. But let's see if I can maintain and keep up with this habit. I'll let you know how it goes.

This is a book given to me by Si Rui for my belated birthday present. Thank you, again!

Lastly, my sister won a giveaway! -inserts super excited and happy emoticon- I know it's not mine but maybe I can use once in a while when it's set up. 

Can't wait till the O levels end. In the mean time, goodbye! 

Things I would like to do

"I don't know what I want so don't ask me cos I'm still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking, trying to see through the rain coming down."

This song describes how I feel sometimes. I know I'm sixteen but I don't feel ready to make decisions. Decisions that will definitely impact my life later down the road.

Anyway I don't mean to make it a "deep" post or whatsoever. Here's a list of things I would like to do after O levels.

Go to church.
Go traveling preferably out of Asia but I don't think that's gonna happen.
Do some voluntary work.
Treat my family to starbucks (have made this promise for a long time but oops haven't been done)
Find a job that I like.
Maybe dye my hair if I'm daring enough (and if I'm allowed lol)
Exercise regularly.
Probably do some song covers.
And hang out with my family and friends of course.

So that's all. I'll probably add more to the list next time. Till then!