I don't know what to do sometimes when i'm just left with nothing but one way to go. I'm incapable of dealing with this and I feel like i'm just trying to avoid the situation, hoping that I can somehow manage this on my own. I'm really afraid, tired and weary. Help me?

Y1 sem 2 term 2 holidays summary

Was having the feel to blog in the afternoon but laziness got the better of me and I just spent my whole day watching videos and HK drama gosh what was I doing with my life. I have indeed become lazier, I must admit but i'm going to make a 180° drastic change starting from this coming Monday when school starts and i'll be in my 2nd acad year. Very upset that my class will be splitting due to HMMIP, but i'm to be more optimistic and it's working for now.

So because I haven't updated the first 1/4 of 2015, i've decided to write up a list (summary) down below not in sequential order.

• visited Wei Ling at Bukit Merah and went to Pan Delights twice
• found a part-time job at Boufe Boutique Cafe (and I just quit yesterday sigh)
• shared my testimony for TGIF. Thank God I didn't feel nervous, just a bit awkward having all eyes looking at me but yes I overcame it!!!!! And also thank God Wei Yun and Moli came!!!!! So heartened that Wei Yun intentionally cancelled her work to set aside time for this event and that Moli received Christ partly because of my testimony.
• made a short film (inspired by Casey Neistat and Jacksgap)!!!!!!!!
• changed my spectacles
• attended Campus Encounter and it was indeed so spiritually rewarding (if there's such a term) 
• bought another schedule book because Boy decided to be naughty and shredded my old one
• bought a novel and Time magazine (Lee Kuan Yew edition)
• went to the Parliament House with Si Rui at 3AM to pay our last respects and give thanks to Mr Lee
• have been seeing Si Rui at least 3 times every week. Gosh why is my life so hard (i'm totally kidding aha) i'll miss seeing her once school reopens
• took the bus at the wrong direction twice + missed a train stop yesterday when we went for our last day of work. We ended up taking a cab and even the taxi uncle teased us. I think we had insufficient sleep???? I don't even know what happened. Also, I almost died because I felt like my bladder was really gonna burst if anyone made me laugh or touched me and Si Rui found it entertaining while I was suffering...

This should sum up the end of my holiday and I should turn in early (1:11AM now) because my new class timetable has 3x 8AM lessons. Goodnight and I hope i'll update in less than a 1/4 of the year's time!

To cherish

One thing to take away from the passing of my aunt's husband is that life is indeed so frail and fragile. Please do cherish the people whom you love because they could be gone the very next day.

Press on and keep praying for them. Claim their salvations! It's never too late to buy them little gifts and make them breakfast and just use any means to make them happy and always let them know that you're thinking of them, you appreciate them and make them feel loved because in the end, no one lives forever.

"Perhaps suffering could even be considered a gift because it might just turn us toward the One we need most of all." LLJ

New Year resolutions

New year, fresh start and new resolutions right?

I'm making it a point to have it all thought out and published because there are some things that I certainly need to work on and writing it out here will probably push me to really keep them and incorporate them in my lifestyle.

So here you go!

1) Exercise regularly
ESP during holidays!

2) Sleep before 1:30AM everyday
Really essential to have plenty of rest!!!

3) To stop napping
Naps can be unhealthy because they normally make me feel groggy and disorientated and they interfere with my nighttime sleeping. And according to research, you can die prematurely if you nap too much!!!!! Just stick to resolutions no. 2 and 6 and naps will no longer be necessary!

4) To have a healthy diet
Consisting strictly of no deep fried food, fast food, soft and sugared drinks (including cartoned fruit juices), confectionery and snacks, frozen and packaged food, and maggie noodles. Eat loads of veggies and fruits and make juices during the weekends!!!! Treat day once every 2 weeks. (Notice I used "treat" instead of "cheat" because as much as I crave these unhealthy food, having a good diet isn't a punishment and I think is something I really might enjoy given that I really have made improvements in terms of my diet since last year compared to previous years where I would carefreely indulge in all kinds of food. But as of now, i've been making a conscientious effort to eat everything in moderation. Although there are missteps along the way, it's perfectly normal. Perfection is unattainable and just get back on track!!!!)

5) Drink plenty of water everyday
8 cups a day.

6) Revise consistently
Consistency is key! Keep a list of small and attainable things to accomplish every week. I'm sure this will lessen my workload and stressfulness when it comes to exam period (which is after Chinese New Year wow).

7) Join a new CCA

8) To take more pictures

9) Spend more time with my family, friends and cellies
To show concern for them through words of affirmation, acts of service, and surprise them with gifts and short letters!!!

10) Write a thanksgiving each day

As for my faith goals...

11) Guard my time with God through daily devotion and prayers

12) To go for encounter camp

13) To put God into consideration whenever I make decisions because I can't work without Him
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5

14) To faithfully do what my leaders ask me to

Even if the appointed tasks seem daunting, one thing's for sure that God will never put me through anything I can't handle.  

15) To pray for my family's and friends' salvation

This verse really puts my heart at ease knowing that even amidst everything going through my life, there's only one constant and that's God's everlasting love for me and that He will never leave nor forsake me. "That's right. Because I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I'm not letting go. I'm telling you, 'Don't panic. I'm right here to help you.'" Isaiah 41:13

Even as I was thinking of what goals I should include, I went back to my 2014 New Year resolutions post and I found out that actually 6 out of 12 of them are included here just that they are more specific. And even if I break any resolutions, it's okay, don't worry. I'll just work on them everyday knowing that I can achieve them step by step!!! It's possible!!!!!!!!! 

I think 1/3 of my brain is fried after thinking for more than an hour on what my resolutions should be and doing research on the list of food I should avoid... But better set it in black and white than a day later right?

Start of 2015

Blessed New Year everyone!!! As 2014 has come to an end, I can't help but feel like I didn't exactly want the new year to approach so fast. It's quite scary how time flies. And this word really hit me as i'm taking time to reflect through the past year: urgency. Urgency for my pre-believing family and friends to receive Christ. 

And here's a quote that I can came upon and resonate with and if you're a pre-believer and you've this mindset/misconception towards certain Christians, here you go.

'Everybody thinks i'm crazy. They say, "You take the Jesus thing too seriously." Well I don't know, but Christ took me pretty seriously when He died for me on the cross.'

Honestly, 2014 hasn't been very smooth-sailing for me because even as I got my school posting results, I wasn't exactly happy that I got posted to DTRM in SP even though I wrote that course as my first choice but there wasn't any excitement because up till now, I don't know if my career option will be related to the tourism industry but I just thought that God will really reveal to me what His plans are, and i've to be sensitive to His promptings and just continue trusting in Him even as time goes on... even if it isn't easy and challenges are presented to me. 

There's this pit/void in my stomach right now and that's because I just found out that i've stats homework which I haven't even touched gosh. And the thought of 9 weeks of school approaching kinda just makes me wanna roll in my bed and hide under my blanket but ah... I'll leave this verse up and God bless for 2015!!!

"In their hearts humans plan their course, but The Lord establishes their steps." Proverbs 16:9

(I'll write up my New Year resolutions probably in the next post because i'm feeling so tensed up right now)

Blessed Christmas

It's finally Christmas!!!!! !⑈ˆ~ˆ!⑈ A joyful season which I always look forward to — not only because of the amazing Christmas food, the vibrant and colourful decorations you see along streets and shopping malls, decorating the Christmas tree (I don't even have one but I would love to), gift shopping (although it can be pretty stressful esp when it's last minute and there are masses of crowds queueing up trying to buy easy gifts like Royce chocolates and overrated Pandora jewellery for their loved ones), scented candles, and festive songs playing everywhere!!!!! But you know what kids??? •ᴥ• Jesus is the reason for the season!!! The true meaning of Christmas isn't just about buying and receiving gifts, it's the celebration of the birth of Christ!!!!! And this unspeakable joy and peace He has gifted us with, and it can't be replaced. So yeap I won't be turning this post into a sermon aha but just wanna share with you what Christmas is really about.

Today I spent my afternoon at my aunt's place having loads of food which includes the heavenly cheese fondue (prepared by my dad) and it's actually antique because my mum bought the pot 30 years ago in Switzerland and it was only first used today (can you believe it???) and other super good food. Look at the amount of calories i've gained!!! ●︿●

Tonight was just spent sleeping but i'm somehow fine with it, at least Boy is kept accompanied. Honestly, to come to think of it, I prefer spending Christmas at home, in Singapore, with my family and friends instead of overseas even though they have pretty iconic places and scenic landscapes because it has a more cozy and homely atmosphere and it's where I was brought up 2/3+ of my life.

Hope you had a blessed Christmas everyone!!! ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀

Had quite a sudden urge to blog and update about school but most probably a brief one.

School has been alright, but I feel that I haven't been productive as of late and I still feel physically and mentally drained. I've no idea why. These days have been particularly stressful especially because there are projects to complete and presentations to be carried out. (Actually just 1) and i'll be having gen ed discussion cafe tomorrow but i'm only halfway done researching my points and i'm exhausted. I know it's really boring to read about my school life but right now, my life only revolves around school and more school and occasionally church.

Anyway, thank God that FOM prezzie is over and i'm so gutted to say that my tutor, Ms Jamie will no longer be there for next term because my original tutor will be back and she wasn't teaching our class due to medical reasons so she was substituted. Just wanna submit the rest of these 2 weeks to God. I know my strength isn't sufficient and i've to rely on God and it's really difficult to stay on top of things when there seems to be an endless list of work to be done. God please help me get through these 10 more days i'm so tired even though I haven't been doing much. This is ridiculous.

Okay enough negativity, just wanted to share how my dad was so sweet and thoughtful recently when I casually told him that my iPhone cable was spoilt, he then bought me a new one a few days later with a special feature but unfortunately, it couldn't be plugged into my phone. So the next day, he went to get me another one. This was a really simple act of love but I was immensely touched. It's small acts of love that gets me going and makes me really happy and blessed to have a father like him.