"I don't know what I want so don't ask me cos I'm still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking, trying to see through the rain coming down."
This song describes how I feel sometimes. I know I'm sixteen but I don't feel ready to make decisions. Decisions that will definitely impact my life later down the road.
Anyway I don't mean to make it a "deep" post or whatsoever. Here's a list of things I would like to do after O levels.
Go to church.
Go traveling preferably out of Asia but I don't think that's gonna happen.
Do some voluntary work.
Treat my family to starbucks (have made this promise for a long time but oops haven't been done)
Find a job that I like.
Maybe dye my hair if I'm daring enough (and if I'm allowed lol)
Exercise regularly.
Probably do some song covers.
And hang out with my family and friends of course.
So that's all. I'll probably add more to the list next time. Till then!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Busy schedule
Disclamer: intro is a little wordy but don't worry!
Hi sorry for being on a hiatus lately but then again no one really reads my blog but anyway it's the last day of march holidays and it wasn't even like a holiday because I returned to school 4/5 weekdays which leaves me like 3 days free but no, I have tuition and family day and everything else. It's quite frustrating really and so is the baby who keeps crying non-stop on the bus right now. And the mum isn't doing anything to stop him/her. Please be more considerate to people who aren't having a good day.
Okay so had flag day last Saturday and it was a different experience. Like something new. Was late because I overslept but who knew that Si Rui and Vanessa were late as well! Okay but I was the latest amongst them. So we went to sentosa and tried collecting funds but a security guard approached us and copied down our IC number and all of us were so shocked (ok being dramatic) not as though we stayed up late and got drunk or something like what you see in movies. But yea he mistook our school as queenstown lol. We are safe for now.
Headed to outram park but there wasn't really anyone and lastly, raffles place! Think it was a pretty good location because there were a couple of working adults who donated.
Quite a challenge to collect donations under the hot sun actually because a few people would just ignore you and others would reject you and say things like "I didn't bring my wallet", or an extremist who was like "no, I don't believe in this" but there were some really generous people who approached me to donate coins and yep some were really nice! :-)
Visited the newly opened mall (sort of) The Star Vista for the first time with Si Rui because Teo Heng Karaoke was fully booked. Had lunch and Awfully Chocolate. I ordered iced chocolate and 2 pieces of truffles. Extremely sweet don't try them.
Recently this Friday, after physics remedial we went to teo heng KTV. And it was my time going for karaoke and I don't really know how to describe it because I was really exhausted after walking up the "hill"/slope, and we were also late (oh also had my first Koi. I ordered café latte.) plus the playlist wasn't really good because it doesn't show you the recent songs or anything and it can't really be called "karaoke" since karaoke only has the background music playing but anyway it was quite fun while it lasted, hehe like singing our hearts out etc, but a little short. :-(
I guess that's all. Wow it took me like 30 minutes to update the pictures etc. Goodbye and I've no guarantee when my next update will be.
Hi sorry for being on a hiatus lately but then again no one really reads my blog but anyway it's the last day of march holidays and it wasn't even like a holiday because I returned to school 4/5 weekdays which leaves me like 3 days free but no, I have tuition and family day and everything else. It's quite frustrating really and so is the baby who keeps crying non-stop on the bus right now. And the mum isn't doing anything to stop him/her. Please be more considerate to people who aren't having a good day.
Okay so had flag day last Saturday and it was a different experience. Like something new. Was late because I overslept but who knew that Si Rui and Vanessa were late as well! Okay but I was the latest amongst them. So we went to sentosa and tried collecting funds but a security guard approached us and copied down our IC number and all of us were so shocked (ok being dramatic) not as though we stayed up late and got drunk or something like what you see in movies. But yea he mistook our school as queenstown lol. We are safe for now.
Headed to outram park but there wasn't really anyone and lastly, raffles place! Think it was a pretty good location because there were a couple of working adults who donated.
Quite a challenge to collect donations under the hot sun actually because a few people would just ignore you and others would reject you and say things like "I didn't bring my wallet", or an extremist who was like "no, I don't believe in this" but there were some really generous people who approached me to donate coins and yep some were really nice! :-)
Visited the newly opened mall (sort of) The Star Vista for the first time with Si Rui because Teo Heng Karaoke was fully booked. Had lunch and Awfully Chocolate. I ordered iced chocolate and 2 pieces of truffles. Extremely sweet don't try them.
Recently this Friday, after physics remedial we went to teo heng KTV. And it was my time going for karaoke and I don't really know how to describe it because I was really exhausted after walking up the "hill"/slope, and we were also late (oh also had my first Koi. I ordered café latte.) plus the playlist wasn't really good because it doesn't show you the recent songs or anything and it can't really be called "karaoke" since karaoke only has the background music playing but anyway it was quite fun while it lasted, hehe like singing our hearts out etc, but a little short. :-(
Took a video but didn't manage to screenshot it because it was way too blur!
And these are some pictures that were supposed to be posted like 1 month ago, I'm so sorry I was really lazy and busy (hey it rhymes) but here they are. Some quality time spent with my family and Si Rui, and Chinese New Year, birthday celebrations etc.
I got the reverso cake from Island Creamery for daddy's birthday - too chocolatey
Oh and that was the shirt that I got him from National Geographic! Thank you daddy I appreciate you a lot. So blessed to have a father like you. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
P.S.: Thank you Si Rui for going to Vivocity with me to get the tee shirt.
Ok so this was my birthday cake. Happy 16th, Sheryl. I'm so weird to wish myself.
Thank you so much Chia Lynn and Grace for coming to my place just to pass me the gifts that you bought. It's so sweet of you guys. (ok I'm like giving some "thank you" speech but no I am just grateful.) ♥♥♥
This is what my sister got me. Thank you Val Val for being someone who has always been there to cheer me up even when you don't know it because you actually make me feel less lonely and that I know I've you to talk to when I'm feeling down. Now tears are starting to form in my eyes lol what's wrong with me. But thank you for everything. ♥♥♥♥♥
This was when Si Rui came over to my place to attempt to do some ukulele covers.
Thank you for coming over. It means a lot like because I was going to be alone on my birthday, but you came over a day earlier to make me happy. You're a super great friend. #BFF ♥♥♥
Chinese New Year = good food prepared by dad.
This was what I wore. But the photos are saved in my sister's phone and I'm too lazy to send it over.
Now moving on to recent news:
My sister bought fairy lights! And they're currently hung on the shelf, and the bed.
Family time at Delifrance
More family time at Labrador Park.
And guess what! I was playing with my dad's phone yesterday and I found out that if I were to directly translate my English name to Chinese, Sheryl becomes 雪兒. It's sort of cool. Haha like a direct translation.
I guess that's all. Wow it took me like 30 minutes to update the pictures etc. Goodbye and I've no guarantee when my next update will be.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Don't give up
Disclaimer: long and emotional rant. It may bore you.
I'm in no absolute mood right now.
So these are my thoughts. And I'm quite certain that when I read this a year later, I'll be laughing at myself. At how silly I am to be so upset about this "trivial" matter.
I really think that this is the most horrible day of my life. No kidding this time. :-(
I screwed up my physics SPA O Levels exam.
It's worth 7% of my physics grade at least. I'm not sure. It may seem a small weightage to you but its definitely not.
It's not only this that I'm really depressed over. It lowered my self esteem. It's my first national exam and its totally messed up. No it's not leaving a question blank. My entire graph was drawn wrongly! And up till now I still have no clue what went wrong with my experiment. I drew the axes correctly but my points seemed weird.
I know it's over and nothing can be done to change my grade but I feel so horrible. Because after it ended and I got back to class, I realised it, and I started tearing up. Even mr siah saw me. And I didn't feel embarrassed with tears in my eyes because that's how bad I felt. That it didn't even matter.
It made me doubt myself. Whether I can really do well for O Levels. And if it was my last paper that I had to sit for, I'd be only a little depressed. But apparently it's not. Maybe it can serve as a warning. As a lesson learnt. That I should work extra hard. But then deep down I still feel so miserable.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I believe that you always answer my prayers because when I ask for help, you will be there to help me. It's just a matter of time. But can you help me once more? I seem so greedy. To keep asking you for help. But I really need your strength. Especially this year.
I'd also like to thank you for the supportive friends that told me its fine. That helped me feel a little better.
Amen.
I should just get over it and move on right? After all you need to pick yourself up when you fall. Because that's how you learn.
And I can still remember this Christian song. "When I fall down you pick me up, when I am dry you fill my cup. You are my all in all. Jesus, lamb of God. Worthy is your name. Jesus, lamb of God. Worthy is your name. Seeking you as a precious jewel. Lord to give up I'd be a fool. You are my all in all."
That was pretty long. But sheryl don't give up! And yes maybe I should watch some motivational videos. And I read this quote from somewhere, "ask yourself will this matter one year from now?"
It may. But I believe that I shouldn't dwell on it.
Sheryl
I'm in no absolute mood right now.
So these are my thoughts. And I'm quite certain that when I read this a year later, I'll be laughing at myself. At how silly I am to be so upset about this "trivial" matter.
I really think that this is the most horrible day of my life. No kidding this time. :-(
I screwed up my physics SPA O Levels exam.
It's worth 7% of my physics grade at least. I'm not sure. It may seem a small weightage to you but its definitely not.
It's not only this that I'm really depressed over. It lowered my self esteem. It's my first national exam and its totally messed up. No it's not leaving a question blank. My entire graph was drawn wrongly! And up till now I still have no clue what went wrong with my experiment. I drew the axes correctly but my points seemed weird.
I know it's over and nothing can be done to change my grade but I feel so horrible. Because after it ended and I got back to class, I realised it, and I started tearing up. Even mr siah saw me. And I didn't feel embarrassed with tears in my eyes because that's how bad I felt. That it didn't even matter.
It made me doubt myself. Whether I can really do well for O Levels. And if it was my last paper that I had to sit for, I'd be only a little depressed. But apparently it's not. Maybe it can serve as a warning. As a lesson learnt. That I should work extra hard. But then deep down I still feel so miserable.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I believe that you always answer my prayers because when I ask for help, you will be there to help me. It's just a matter of time. But can you help me once more? I seem so greedy. To keep asking you for help. But I really need your strength. Especially this year.
I'd also like to thank you for the supportive friends that told me its fine. That helped me feel a little better.
Amen.
I should just get over it and move on right? After all you need to pick yourself up when you fall. Because that's how you learn.
And I can still remember this Christian song. "When I fall down you pick me up, when I am dry you fill my cup. You are my all in all. Jesus, lamb of God. Worthy is your name. Jesus, lamb of God. Worthy is your name. Seeking you as a precious jewel. Lord to give up I'd be a fool. You are my all in all."
That was pretty long. But sheryl don't give up! And yes maybe I should watch some motivational videos. And I read this quote from somewhere, "ask yourself will this matter one year from now?"
It may. But I believe that I shouldn't dwell on it.
Sheryl
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